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I wrote a piece about my last days in the hell of alcohol addiction. I nearly drank myself to death in grief and loss. Thanks for posting this.

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Thanks for sharing your personal experience, it’s important!

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Dear heavens man, hope that's all in the past now!

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My heart breaks for anyone going through addiction and their families being affected too. It can be hellish.

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For sure!

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Many thanks for this great personal share and insight. Very compassionate and honest. I never had a problem with alcohol or any drug, but have seen all its devastation. Hat's off to you for walking the straight line!

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Thanks so much for reading and also sharing!

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All my pleasure to stop by and visit! I so much appreciate writers who share their personal experiences and open themselves up to the rest of us. We're all here together and we all bleed red.

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100%, I am very thankful for you

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Amazing! God bless!

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God bless you for the accomplishment! And for the hope your testimony brings! What a wonderful family you are blessed with, and how much experience you have to share, too.

I was thinking that someone needs to start a special Substack, just on alcohol recovery...

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That could be a really great idea!

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New writers can use your Substack referral link, which you can post below and in all your articles - find it under the "Buttons" dropdown. I put my link at the bottom of all my articles.

Current writers like you can just start a new Substack from your Home Page. I have 3 that I write, plus I manage a couple more for others:). They are all connected to my main Substack, and from the top right button, I can toggle back an forth between all of them.

Hope this is helpful and encouraging!

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So thankful that I never desired alcohol!

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Very good on your part!

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Well, like I say, I can't really take credit. It was just never important to me and I did drink occasionally.

My father would have a beer now and then. I'm the same way.

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Alcohol is human poison, I am coming to realize.

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For sure!

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Very important post.

you said "People look for alcohol to kill the pain. Numb it. Emotional pain, spiritual pain…When they feel hopeless."

For those who are physically and emotionally abused this can be a real physical need to numb pain, but as you say it doesn't help but just puts on a mask.

I think only God can heal such deep seated pain and trauma.

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I agree, so difficult, but all is possible with God

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Yes and there are lots of examples in various books, have you read these?

Nobodies Child by John Robinson, documents is struggles to overcome addiction after being abused as an orphan, who then spent the rest of his life helping abused kids in England overcome their pain without alcohol and with God.

Mr Eternity: The Story of Arthur Stace, who, with God's help, overcame drunkenness which was caused from the trauma of the WW1, and for over 35 years became famous by simply spending a few hours a week writing a single word - Eternity - on and around the streets of Sydney. It was a great witness, particularly as nobody knew who was writing it!

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Will look them up!

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Beautiful.

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Yep, it was me. I stopped putting on that mask about 650 days ago. And I so hope I'll never put it on again. Thank you so much for sharing.

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Congrats! So happy for you!

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Thank you so much! My first post ever on Substack was about finding sobriety. Here it is if you're interested. 😊

https://open.substack.com/pub/michelleneeling/p/dying-of-thirst?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=9b2h0

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It’s been nearly 5 years since I last had a drink.

It’s not easy, but the alternative is harder.

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Congrats! You’re amazing!

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ALL of this hits home. 16+ years in recovery here and I can attest to the work, the strength and the hope that lies within 🙏🙏🙏

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So glad, you’re an inspiration!

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I think it's important to seek help for yourself if you have been affected by alcoholism,l did get help and became a survivor.A believer, l found God the light, in the darkness,and people who helped me l will always be grateful to.. Thanks Alexander ♥️🕊️.

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Praise God!

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I will always struggle with some sort of addiction. It's a reality that I've come to understand. Family history, genes, learned behaviors, situational necessity. Lots of reasons. I'm grateful to be able to see it and am managing to avoid most of it these days.

Giving myself kindness and grace when I slip.

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It’s really hard not to be!

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Thank you so much for this. I’ve been there too and have loved ones either in it now or trying to establish sobriety in their early days. 💔❤️🙏

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It’s an important battle to win, I didn’t realize the effects on myself until I fully quit, but I was never a huge drinker, however had family members who were devastated by it and friends.

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Yeah it’s unreal what it does to us / others. Thank fkng God recovery is possible- just wish I knew how to help more ppl get it

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For sure, all we can do is try and be our best for others and ourselves

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Alcohol, nicotine and caffeine are all poisons; they each have known lethal dose levels. In pharmacology, new drugs are tested on mammals and a “Lethal Dose that attains the death of 50% of the test population” is determined. In toxicology and science, it is known as LD50. In America, we have determined that these poisons which have a known LD50 are licit, yet three substances having no known LD50 have been made illicit. My sources are the Journal of Forensic Sciences and Julian’s “Primer on Drug Action.”

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I write about fentanyl addiction. I do have several friends recovering or still in the battle to recover from alcohol addiction. Some say it's fentanyl but I believe alcohol is the most difficult because it's so socially acceptable.

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Great point, yes, I’m studying more about it now too

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Yeah, ate up my Dad until he stopped drinking, and because of his suffering and his warnings against alcohol I've never had a single drop in all the 30 some years of life I've been alive for. Merci Dieu, pour cela.

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Very good thar you haven’t and so sorry for your dad!

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Oh but by the time he passed he was 10 years sober or at least no longer an alcoholic, and could imbibe without fear of losing control and becoming an addict so that he drank only once a year to get drunk and sipped his beer maybe 3 times a year, just for the taste. Somehow he conquered the addiction.

I dunno how he did it, but I'd like to conquer all addictions I've developed over the years as he did.

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It’s not easy, we can do it with God

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